I feel a very deep connection with you, rather a very old one. It’s the memory of who I was and how your presence made me feel. You looked at me and reminded me of how pure I am when I was laden with deep sorrow. Sorrow due to separation from my lover.
You transformed my longing by attaching it to you. You replaced the object of my love. When I couldn’t find my lover anywhere and the pain became unbearable, you appeared everywhere. You became the wall between my ignorance and me.
Whenever I am nearing you (whether it was when you initiated me or when I first saw you in Vasad Ashram), I have felt an imaginary river flowing that connects only you and me with a very delicate thread.
The thread doesn’t eliminate the world, but it suddenly sidelines it. The thin yet magnanimous thread becomes my protection, making me feel secure. My thoughts are replaced by the longing to be with you.
I feel a deep connection with the cows of the Gaushala at Vasad Ashram. They had a divine aura around them. They were independent and free. I cannot wait for the moment when you’ll look into my eyes.
I distinctly sense our past connection. I know you are the true lover of my soul and will always be.